I... I want to forget... I try to fix things but you don't want. I understand your choice. Maybe you are feeling great with your life, living each day like a normal one, you are so lucky. Meanwhile I need to stop thinking in what happened and try to forget you. Because I am living each day with pain.
I never lose a friend like you before. I don't trust much people like I did with you... Maybe, that was another mistake that I did. If I never trust you like I did, maybe I won't feel so unhappy. All this is my fault and is something I must to live. I want to forget you because is the only way that I would go ahead with this situation.
I... I wrote for you an apologise months ago (like two weeks after we fight) but you never read it [ kitsube-art.deviantart.com/jou…
]. I am sure that you are not reading this but I need to write it.
I remember something that I told you a lot of time ago. If he care about you, he will forgive you. Does it mean that you never care about me? That you never love me (as a friend)?
I am a human, I make mistake. But I need to know. Was that bad what I did to you for not deserve your apologies? Or, I never was your friend?